whatev.

so i woke up this morning and heard unzzel calling farrell. apparently they made plans to go to the beach, yet i didnt get a knock on the door to see if i wanted to go. this was after i opened my shutters and kindda cried a little (i know! whyyyy?!) so i jumped in the shower and we headed to meet everyone. well as soon as we get to the apartment unzzel ran to sheri and jack. i noticed them get weird when i walked in too. i went to talk to serena about spring break, blah blah blah. then we left. as we rode the metro, those 3 stuck together and totally ditched me. me tiraron indirectas, pero bueno, no me iba a poner a pelear alli en medio metro! so i notice that unzzel is being extremely distant with me and being kindda rude. the whole time on the beach, i was super quiet. even b noticed and he asked what was wrong. i guess its weird to see me quiet? but anyway, on our way back, sheri was super drunk. she walked into a bar to buy cigarettes and the bar tender told her to close the door but sheri just kept walking and said "joder" to her...which i guess means like fuck you. the bartender walked out and was like "what did you tell me cuz i couldnt hear you!" and sheri just kept mumbling and said joder again and tried to walk off but she tripped and busted her toe on the side walk. it was funny when the bartender was like "si vete aver si te trastornas un poco mas" then bam sheri fell and the bartender was like "wtf! now look at your feet" and sheri and unzzel walked in to fix her foot up. it sucked, like her toe was seriously split. it was bruising all ugly too. so we left, and i still felt really bad and wanting to cry cuz i hate being ignored and treated like shit. i was really wishing my sister was here so i would give a rats ass about what they do. the whole time i was thinking that im better then the gossip girls and im not gonna let their little circle of shit get to me. stupid cliques based on shit talking always end up breaking anyway. eventually they'll all be talking shit about each other and thats the end of that. but i just cant stand this shit right now. the other people i talk to here are cool and everything, but idk if i could be hanging out with them all the time. its just i feel so bad right now. if i could i would jump on the first plane to vegas and go home. i didnt think this trip was gonna be like a shit talking high school trip. if i wanted that i wouldda stayed back home to deal with the "friends" i have back there. this is supposed to be fun and something i look back on and enjoy, not something that reminds me of how shitty some people are. i hate people that act like that, and i hate being the one thats out of the loop. it sucks that they all talk shit because im friends with serena. the whole time they kept saying things about her and they kept telling me "i know you're gonna run back and tell her"...like seriously, i havent told her shit to this day. its all jack and his big mouth. not me! im just her friend, not her drama started.

im so done with this shit and all the fake people. but i seriously need to have a talk with unzzel and tell her its not fair to be acting like this with me over some stupid shit jack told her (cuz i KNOW he did....no se le cose nada al jotinguis)....i'll tell her how i told him it was frustrating to be around her in barcelona cuz she was so chill...simply because im such a worry wart. i'll tell her how i was upset that i didnt get an invitation to bilbao or the dinner...and im gonna tell her how i feel when she whispers shit to everyone else and leaves me behind like some dog. you just dont do that shit to other people, especially not your roommate.