wonderful weekend.

so thursday night we went to this one bar here where i live cuz there's a live band. i was kindda just there not really talking to anyone, just being the freaky kid that stands there next to you lol. i had a gin and tonic and pretty much chilled on my own. now we all know how much i HATE being alone...so i figured i'd talk to the girl in my culture class...so whatever, we talked about how her beer and lemon tasted like shit. then jack came by and we went outside. we kept going in and out. till the end we just decided it was too smokey inside so we sat up against this wall. then my friend katie's boyfriend came out, we'll call him, Jesse. jesse came and talked to me and jack for a little, then when jack went back inside, i decided i'd stay outside for a little longer. then jesse sat down next to me....before i continue, let me tell you about what i told him a few weeks back...

maybe 2 or 3 weeks ago, we went to algorta for their carnaval thing. well we had drank a bottle of wine, and like 2 whiskey and coke here at home. when we went to one of the guy's houses, i took a drink of pure vodka that sheri had, which was sick! then i drank about half a bottle of wine there too. well i guess as we walked outside, it was kindda getting to me. you know when you get those little blackouts? well yeah. i was with katie and jesse, and well, i have a tendency to talk out of my ass when i drink a little too much. well, as i stood there with serena and them waiting for some guy to come out of the bar, katie mentioned how jesse was dressed up as a sancho, then one of the guys told her "well since he's the sancho, how about you pay him back and...make out with dini"...and we kindda looked at him all disgusted and said no. then my smart ass goes off on a tangent. "omg katie remember how mad you got when those girls were all looking at jesse? haha...well i remember the very first day at the orientation, i saw jesse and thought he was SOOOOO hot. but when i found out he was your boyfriend, he was totally off limits! and i mean, if any girl tries to get with him, i'll kick their ass cuz i got your back."

WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! i say the stupidest things, sometimes i wonder why god gave me a mouth! so yes, i basically told jesse i think he's super cute....anyway, back to thursday night. jack left and jesse sat down next to me. i was a little uncomfortable cuz he was sitting next to me, and since everyone here likes to start rumors, i was like "shiit! this is gonna get back to katie and she's gonna HATE me! she already knows i think he's cute!" so i was kindda wanting to leave, but jesse kept talking to me. he's a hella cool guy, so i wasnt gonna be rude and walk away. then he said "i can't sit on this lopsided wall. im going to go sit at the bench over there, want to come with me?" ummm...ok? so i went and sat with him...but there was a decent space between us. while we sat there, we had a little heart to heart about how this program blows and we want to go back home! he was saying he was so frustrated with these guys that they're lucky he hasn't knocked them out yet! and i kindda hinted at the jack being a big mouth thing. and he said how me and him were on the same page, and that not even katie understood him and just told him to relax and enjoy spain. as we were talking, there were other people from the program outside, then unzzel came and sat in between us...

friday when we went on the excursion for school, serena happened to be sitting in front of jesse and katie. i sat with serena and said hi to them, but only katie replied. umm ok. when we got off to take pictures really quick, i noticed how katie and jesse went their own separate ways every time. i was kindda thinking they were mad, then i started freaking out about "omg! what if someone made up some crazy shit and told katie about me and jesse sitting outside last night?!" but i guess they were just doing their own thing. we had our lunch together, and everything was cool there after. but thennnnn! that night was when i was totally weirded out by everything (has nothing to do with jesse and katie anymore lol)

now, remember i mentioned serena told me jack tells sheri about everything they say? and i guess that whole apartment is having issues, or was. friday night i was with jack and when i went to his room to get my jacket he told me "hey...why is serena mad at me? is it because sheri told her about the lunch meat she took? i didn't tell sheri. she was just bitching and blamed B, but i said it wasn't him. is serena mad because of that because she's being really rude with me. i know you know because you guys are really good friends." and i just looked at him and said i didn't know (eventhough i did. and she was mad at him for that) and said he should talk to her and see what SHE has to say. so we went to jose's house, and again jack kept asking and trying to see why serena was being so different and if she was mad because he hangs out with sheri alot. i simply told him to talk to her, but to remember to stay true to the friends he came with, not to just leave serena out in the cold and talk shit about her. when we went back to their apartment, he went in to serena's room to talk to her, then we left to the metro. in the metro he kept saying how he felt really upset about the whole thing and he didn't want to go out. i kept telling him to not worry and they just have to clear everything up. well when sheri got there, they started talking about the whole situation. earlier, serena had told me that jack said i was the one that told him serena called sheri cruela. so i was kindda mad at jack...but then i hear sheri tell him "i just think it's messed up that serena even talks shit about her own best friends, yet she tries to be so innocent. i was the one that put my foot down when she started talking shit about her own friend who she plans trips with." WTF?! so i quickly speak up and told her "look sheri, if you have to say something to me, im right here. instead of talking about me indirectly, tell me to my face. im here, and i WILL clear everything up with you and jack." (this was not in a bitchy attitude at all) thats when they told me. they said that serena talks shit, well more like, tells them everything i say to her. sheri told me "look, all i have to tell you is don't tell her any of your secrets cuz we ALL know about them" then i brought up the cruela thing and they both said that serena was the one that said I was the one that said it first.

so im so lost on who to believe! it sucks because i dont know if serena is being truthful about jack being a gossip and telling sheri everything, or if both jack and sheri are being truthful with saying serena tells them what i vent to her about. so i decided i would NOT tell anyone anything anymore and better yet, just write everything in here or tell to my sister through AIM. im so tired of all these stupid little games these 19 year old kids play. im done with high school, i guess they aren't.

yesterday was my first real soccer game. i went to see Athletic vs Villareal. it was so much fun! it only sucked that we were sitting by this fence thing that blocked part of the action. i bought a pretty cool athletic scarf for 12 euros. and now we cant wait to go to another game! i want to go to the one on april 6th, so if my sister wants, we'll go see it! lol