i can't argue for shit

so since serena's friends got here last week, she's been sooo annoying! she thinks she knows everything and she just leaves me out of shit. i dont mind that cuz we all do it when we're around our good friends. but im just so sick of it. wednesday at this school dinner for the cooking class, i made a comment, speaking like a moron, and said "he speaks english very good"...meaning "he speaks very good english" and annie corrected me by saying "well"...and serena adds "apparently you dont" and laughs. then she starts ignoring me out of nowhere and just being the bitch that she is. so whatevs. we were supposed to go watch a bullfight in madrid on sunday night, but she decided to go on thursday instead without letting me know. then in portugal, she kept bugging me because she kept talking about cristiano ronaldo and how if she met him, it would be a set deal and he'd wanna get with her...she would just look at me like expecting me to say something. and when i'd mention how good looking he is she'd say "you can't talk...you called him a cry baby"....like he isn't?! im sorry but just because you like him DOES NOT mean you don't see how much of a damn cry baby he is in games. being a cry baby does not mean he sucks...cuz hell, he's fuckin amazing! but anyway, she kept asking people about him...like they were supposed to know everything about him because he's portuguese. then it bugged me when she'd say "oh he's from MEH-DEE-RAH....bitch, it's MAH-DAY-RAH....read it right...Madeira...not Madeera....

she was rude and wouldn't be all "engetata" and not say anything at times. so whatever. then SHE set a time for sushi...but i was supposed to bring the expensive wraps like always...she calls me at 730 "are you coming? (i say no and she says...) well i just wasted 2 and a half hours waiting for you for nothing. we have everything ready and just waiting for the sushi wraps. you said 5 because you were gonna bring stuff over...blah blah blah" so i got mad because 1, she better not be talking to me in that tone of voice; 2, she's not my mom to yell at me; and 3...she's YOUNGER than me! so i got home, pissed as hell...grabbed the sushi wraps and stuff she needed...i marched over to her apartment and threw the stuff at the table and said "there! that's what you've been waiting for for 2 and a half hours right? there!" and it just went on and on...obviously, we all know i can't argue without getting choked up and cry because i can't get my points across...but THEN! jack and sheri ganged up on her too....it was sad. i was upset. but damn...according to jack (which by the way is not a reliable source) he told me how serena was talking shit about our spring break trip. how me an my sister, the ones that knew french would always make her do everything...and then how "mommy and daddy" paid for our whole trip...bitch pissed me off! but i still felt bad that everything got blown out of proportion. and i know all this shit is gonna blow up in my face either today or tomorrow. but fuck it!!!

and ohh! now, just right now...we got home at 4, and they were all gonna go to the beach, and annie said i had to go. so i come home and tell brick wall to wait while i shaved my legs. well the fucker kept yelling for me to hurry up and go. when we left, like 10 minutes later, he decides to walk all fast and take a different turn. i asked where he was going and he said the bank. so i said i'd wait at the metro and he yells "yeah cuz i waited for you all fuckin day and you can't even wait for me" so i said "i said i'd wait in the fuckin metro,...you know what, FUCK YOU!" and walked home. he better not think he can come in my room and try to talk to me...i'll kick his ass...motherfucker!

19.

soooo! i had told my sister about the weekend and how i was blamed for no one hanging out with one of the girls. and how on monday she comes up to me and says "i was told you said i blew you off"...well who said that? take a wild guess? YES! JACK! i thought he stopped with that bullshit, but apparently he's still that way. just goes to show he's a 19 year old IMMATURE guy (girl? lol)....i dont know about those two (jack and serena) because they say one thing, and then they change it up. whenever they have to take responsibility about something they said, they ALWAYS say it was me. good thing this girl came up to me and talked about it, and she told me it was jack who said it, so i told her HE told me that in MY apartment after he talked to her roommate. so whatever. i have like 3 weeks left with them as "friends"...so whatevs. i just wanna go home to MY non-friends (aka twiggy lol)...which reminds me, idk if i should call her to say happy birthday. she's been shady and in love with her mexican rich girls, so i might say "i tried calling" but actually don't. idk...i might just not even talk to her when i get back home....i should start by taking her off my top friends huh...haha

marranitos

i have like 10 minutes before my class starts...so lets get at this before everyone from the program gets on the computers....

my roommates are pigs! no lie...i think they're part piggies because they dont like to clean after themselves...nor are they very hygienic. they leave dishes out (as you saw in my pictures) and they dont clean the stove or the bathroom. they rely on me to buy all the shit for around the house. but what did i do? i said fuck you and didn't do shit for the weekend. i left to serena and jack's house for pretty much the whole time. i noticed when i came home that there was no toilet paper. so i went in my room, grabbed some that i had and went potty....the following day (friday) i noticed there wasn't anymore...so i felt bad and put one of the rolls i had since brick wall had his "loaded wifey" in town....friday afternoon-ish it ran out. saturday there wans't any...ui figured he'd go buy some since sunday everything is closed. what happened? NOTHING! i had 5 rolls in my room, but i thought i would be mean and not put any in the bathrooms because, well, i bought 24 rolls after spring break. FUCK YOU! so i didn't. lazara went yesterday and bought 12...she just gave me this look when i got home at 8 last night. whatevs bitch, how bout i give you that look when you eat all my cheese and buy nasty ass chorizo for lunch meat!

it's gotten to the point where i hide all my shit. my closet has: a loaf of bread, black pepper, tortillas, oreo cake mix, soup, oranges, rice, and sushi making stuff. i don't give a fuck really. call me immature...i'll call you moochers for eating my shit and never buying anything. assholes...rot in hell bitches!!! and one more thing, never, and i mean NEVER am i living with guys (that aren't my husband lol)....this weekend, i didn't sleep in my apartment for this reason...but saturday i just wanted my bed. welllll i couldn't sleep because someone was in there having sex...and lazara wasn't home. so now all i hear about is: "oh mann! i didn't know she had only been with one guy...but fuck! she fucked me in the guggeinheim!" im sure she lovessss you now for telling all your friends asshole!


soooo sick of them and can't wait to come home and never see them again!

welcome to my pigsty, i mean, apartment.

(i had to hide my food)

So, i haven't been home (like sleep in my bed) since tuesday. wednesday i slept at vince's, thursday and friday at serena and jack's. brick wall had his loaded wifey come from london for the weekend, so i figured he'd want the house to himself....so whatever. lazara missed her flight ::evil laugh:: thursday, so she left friday. i came home friday and noticed the sink was full of dishes and pans. i just came home and noticed THE SAME dishes are in the sink. i dont get it. he's trying to marry this girl, but he doesn't even CLEAN the damn apartment! dirty ass!

thennnnn last night, there was shit said because i told sheri that her friend tamalito ate half of my sushi when she wasn't invited to the dinner. so tamalito yelled at jack (waited till me and serena left). so whatever, she changed the conversation when serena called her out. then at 4am we're woken up by drunken sheri being all loud. jack came out of his room and asked her to shut up since we were sleeping, and sheri said no. so jack started going off on her and almost made her cry. he called her a little bitch and now they're not friends haha...it was hilarious!

now, as my sister brought to my attention, i hope they don't go talking shit and throwing me in it like always. which i know they will...and what am i gonna do? take it, but be truthful about it. if serena says something about "wtf, why are you talking shit" i'll say "like you haven't? you said i started calling sheri names" blah blah blah...i got shit on all of them just like they might on me...

ohhh! what i wanted to tell you anomalie....i found out that when lazara was in amsterdam, she tried bringing back some weed. well the idiot wrapped it in aluminum foil and when she went through security it went off. she got patted down and the lady was like "give me the packet out of your pocket" they took her in the back, and lucky for her in holland they don't do much to you about that...but she couldda gotten in trouble for drug smuggling. guess you shouldn't mess with that shit dumbass!

that's it?

so these famous little dinners my roommates like to have = LAME SHIT!

my mom and sister called me yesterday at around 7 while lazara decided to cook these overly greasy potatoes and jamon serrano (the raw looking shit)....i had told my sister i wasn't invited like always...but once lazara got home, it's like she sensed that i knew it wasn't cooking class afterall, and she invited me. i said no because i had a presentation to do today, and she still urged me to go...so i gave in and went. turns out, i think she invited me simply because she couldn't open doors since she was carrying the platter thing. but whatevs, i went.

we got to smarty-pant's place and "brick wall" was there with annie, cutting stuff up. soap was the drink police, so he was watching. i felt guilty because i didnt bring anything, so i wasnt eating. tamalito served me some wine (which was gross and i only drank that one cup within the whole night...hurt me to finish it also!) and they gave me some food to taste. taco shop and his girl showed up and made some bomb ass food (this crab meat salad thing with cilantro, green onions and lime...and breaded fish...yummmmm). we ate, then started to play some games. they were playing this quarters game...but i didn't want to because it involved you drinking ALL your cup if they put a quarter in there. so then afterwards we played king's cup, but never finished it.

i guess lazara had TOO much to drink because she was stumbling everywhere. by the time taco shop and his roommates left, i decided i should leave too because it's like an hour and a half walk. when i told trev to leave, lazara bitches about taking a taxi. me and brick wall walk into the room she fell asleep in and tried convinving her to walk with us. i give in and say i'll take a taxi with her since i have 15€ on me....but brick wall says no and brings out pillows. trev is gone, so i can't walk home alone now. so fuck it, i slept on the couch. brick wall SWORE he would wake up at 7 because he needed to go home and get his hw to go to class (he got a d last quarter! hahahaha...go to class dipshit, they weren't lying about that being most of your grade). i set my alarm at 7, woke up...no one else moved. i reset it for 710....no one woke up. by that time brick wall's alarm is going off, but he won't reset it. so i walked in there and told him to get up because he needed to go to school (yeah! im such a mom!) but he just made some stupid noise and shooed me away. i woke up lazara, but she said to give her a minute.

i sat in the kitchen till 745. at that time i thought, i gotta find my way back...i have to catch the 940 bus. then i remembered, lazara has a plane to catch at 1230. so i walked back to her room and said "hey...im leaving. if you want to come, im going now"...she woke up and asked about brick wall...but we knew he wouldn't show. so we left.

i napped for like 40 minutes, got up, threw on a hat and left.

i always thought these damn dinners would be better...but im glad i wasn't missing out. i just missed out on that show about sex...i forgot what it's called...cuestion de sexo or something....i haven't watched los hombres de paco anymore :[

30 days.

just 30 days till i go home! i loveeee it!

my bestie got laid off, so she's picking me up and dropping me off when i get and leave LAX. im excited and cant wait!

last night was odd...lorenza actually talked to me and invited me to have dinner with her and the other friend. weird i know! but i still dislike them. i'll talk to them only when i HAVE to.

i can make sushi now, so im gonna overdose with that back home.

one month. i can do it!

im all alone

wote this last night

my sister left today. I have 34 days left here, and I know the next 32 are gonna be horrible! As soon as I stepped into my apartment after dropping my sister off, I started bawling. How could I not, she kept me sane and was the reason I didn’t cry. I miss her like crazy! I wish I would be going home too. My roommates make my life hell! I went to serena and jack’s house at like 7 and got home at 130am (its 153), and as soon as I walk in, I see there’s a light on. I walked over to my room, and sathe light was coming from farrell’s room. Guess who’s in there? "lazara", all cuddled up next to him (they’re not cuddling together, they’re just sitting next to each other) watching some movie. Right now, they’re watching something else talking all loud drinking other people's vodka that they left here.
Once I got back from the airport, at like noon they called lazara to invite her to go over jose’s house for brunch. Once I got to serena’s place, we cooked and later on, jack came out and told us how they weren’t planning on inviting lazara, but they knew she had weed so they called her for it. I guess my other roommate davide sells her some. But they’re so gay! She sees how they use her, but she’s still all up in their ass. And farrell, I wont even talk about him. He acts all nice, but then he favors lazara for everything, so he can suck it!
Im just so sick of everyone and everything. Once I go home, that’s the end of all these little fuckers! I doubt I’ll keep in touch with any of them! Maybe katie, will, lauren, possibly serena and jack (even if they lie, make shit up, and exaggerate everything). My roommates, they can get alcohol poisoning and get ran over by a dump truck.

my brother in bilbao

so thursday night jack and serena asked me to spend the night since we'd be going to the coca cola factory early friday. so i did. plus, i didnt feel like being in the house all alone with the new roommate. so friday we went to the coke factory and jack came back home with me, met dave and we went to get my brother from the airport. we were a little late because there was some sort of accident so we got there kind of late. coming back sucked because traffic was backed up! i got home and had to hurry to go meet my intercambio. i left rafa talking with dave and his girlfriend while i went to chat with this girl. it was a little awkward because im not good at one on one conversations with strangers. she looks really young and has very short hair! kindda like boy hair. she's a physics major, so i dont think i'll be meeting up with her often because she has class like all day.

anyway, friday we all went to a cidreria and got in at about 930pm. we had cider till midnight. everyone was pretty drunk except me. my brother like always, got pretty drunk. when we were coming back to my town, he jumped over the metro thingy, so he didn't scan through, i was so mad and kept calling him an idiot. and he kept giving me nuggies, so i was sooo mad. then in the metro i kept telling him to shut up cuz he was being annoying and loud, and he yelled at me! he was in my face telling me shit (not loud) and the lady in front of us was just staring on looking all scared. nikki said rafa was really cool, and i guess the people we went to the cidreria with liked him, but then we have the ones that think they're the shit that would just stare at my brother like wondering who he was. i hated that, i wanted to beat their ass and tell them my brother is a million times better, even if he can be loud and obnoxious!

saturday we walked around bilbao. we were supposed to go on this long walk along the beach/hills, but somehow decided on going to bilbao. i felt bad though because my brother kindda wanted to go to the guggenheim, but we didn't...just the outside. because we walked around too long and took forever. we got back home at like 9pm and we were starving! i made dinner for all of us (me, my brother, jack, and serena) and didn't leave till almost midnight. we went to jose's house, and it was LAME! they were smoking weed and there were like 6 people. kevin was talking to my brother most of the time. then me, will, and my brother left to catch the metro and met up with sheri at some gayyyy concert! i was getting so mad at the drunk people! it was probably in support of eta or some shit. but on our way back, will came with me and my brother...the metro's power went out! it wouldn't go forward, so we had to back up into the previous stop an switch trains. i was worried thinking it was some terrorist attack, but we were fine.

today we did do the 2 hour walk and i wanted to take him to eat at this basque restaurant, but it was closed, so we had nasty chinese food. but before that, we ate pizza...so we were fatties for the day :] i took him to the airport at like 6, dropped him off at the bus station so he could catch the 655 bus. right now, 930pm, he should be flying back to london. as much as he irritates me and we fight, i miss him! i can imagine when my sister leaves, im gonna be all bummed out for like weeks! but the good thing will be that i'll only have a month once she leaves. im really dying to leave right about now. besides my roommates being assholes, i hate being alone. i just miss home and being with my parents. all this petty drama pisses me off and i miss real mexican food, and texting, and just the way things are...but mostly the comfort of being in my own house with people i love. i miss my friends from back home. they never judged over stupid shit, and they didn't try to hard to be liked by other people. unzzel is so dumb sometimes i think twiggy is a better person than her! i also kindda miss her and her stupid talks! but man, i cant believe i miss home so much! im still making the best of it here, but its hard when such assholes surround you! just one week till spring break!

handle it biotch!

so lately i've been super upset. aside from the situation with my dad, there's been some other shady shit going on back in my apartment. as i told my sister, my roommates are self centered. i dont get them. pinches hipocritas! like one minute they're all cool with me, then the next they go whisper in each others rooms. wtf! i thought of my cousin, the so called gangster one...when he'd go up to people and be all in their face saying "lets handle it then!" and want to fight them haha...but how my sister said, next time i notice them being all fucked up like that, im just clearly gonna tell them if they have something to say, to not be little bitches and just say it to my face. but i guess if whats her face is at the apartment, im gonna ask her to tell me what happened saturday night...coming straight from her mouth. is 1. she made me leave...i got my rebuttle. if 2. she says i left on my own...i once again have my rebuttle. point being, you NEVER let a drunk girl go home ALONE...especially not in the metro where you can easily go the wrong way. but enough about that, i just dont want her being all shady and rolling her eyes when i talk...or facing the other way when im in the room. i hope i can be a little badass like my grandpa that would smack people in the face for not soluting the flag...i just hope i can stand my ground and not shed a tear like i usually do...damnit! im a Monar... i should not be a little bitch!

blah

i want to go home. i hate living here and i hate my roommates.

get your own shit!

i swear i hate my roommates sometime. well roommate. unzzel was sick yesterday so we decided to stay in...me cuz well, i didn't feel like calling anyone up to see what there was to do since the metro only runs till 2am....not enough time for me. so i cooked at like 930, but only i ate. then i watched some movies and went to bed at like 2. at 4:45 i hear B of all people! he's talking super loud, almost as if he was in my room talking in the middle of the day. then i hear farrel's friend ness being super loud and giggly. then farrel with his loud ass drunk voice. whatev, i still tried to sleep. no luck. i decided i'd go into the kitchen, where they were, to ask them to be a little bit quieter. they were super loud and were like "oh im sorry!!!" and farrel's cooking something and he's even louder saying "sorry sorry!"

i feel bad for our neighbors. now i know why the lady above us lets her kids run around the house like wild horses. but then! i wake up at 10am cuz once again, those 3 are being loud. i guess they're taking ness somewhere before she leaves? idk but when i went into the kitchen to put my blankets to wash (oh man! i'll talk about that one in a little bit!) i notice the trash is overflowing. there's a carton of eggs. i see inside and there's 8 used eggs in there! wtf?! i got soooo mad! farrel used 8 eggs last night to make his stupid food. first of all, if they were his, i wouldn't have said shit. he used the 3 i had left in my carton, and 5 from unzzel! we buy the eggs, yet he can use them? hell fucking no! i also buy the sandwich stuff, but somehow it always disappears. now, i know i might sound all selfish...but shit is so expensive here! fuckin loaf of bread is like $3 if not a little more. the 10 pieces of turkey breast is another $2.50...the eggs are probably the same, if not more. farrel only buys shit he needs for the day. it pisses me off because i'm wasting my money on shit he eats. no. my parents have ONE child in spain, not THREE. i understand my parents send me money once a month (not what they're supposed to send...but what i need i guess) and i had $4000 saved up, but if i would have known my parents and myself would have to be paying for the other people i'd be living with, i wouldn't have come. i havent really bought the necessities here, because i want farrel to buy the shit. but i just dont know how to go about it. i kindda hint at it, but he doesn't get it.

and about the sheets? for some reason i keep getting these bug bites on my legs. they're like sancudo bites, just smaller. well thursday morning i woke up with 2 bites on my hand...then yesterday i woke up itching my legs...then last night after i got woken up, i kept feeling all these bites all over my legs. i have about 7 of them...5 on one leg...2 on my foot. its gross. so i was all paranoid last night. i woke up this morning washing ALL my bed sheets and flipping my mattress around haha. idk what the fuck it is, but they better not be bed bugs!

damn italians!

so i had to go to school a little earlier today cuz i didn't get to finish my presentation on las vegas for conversation class...so i left 20 minutes earlier (yeah big deal right haha) and when get to school, im walking on top (there's the walkway on the roof lmao) and i see there's like 3 tv cameras, who knows why. i'm on the walkway that connects the bookstore to the library (where we have our classes. its a 5 or 6 story building...idk why they call it the library...weird ass basque people). then in front of the camera, well a few feet away from it, this guy says something to me. so i stop and take out one of my earphones. he's talking in this weird language...some sort of spanish i thought. i caught the word "informacion" so i repeated the word, like it was going to help! lol...and he said all this weird shit to me, and i just stared. then he goes "espanola?" and i smiled and said "no americana"...here's the rest of the conversation:

him: ahhh...americana? yo soy de ::inaudible:: italia. de que pais?
me: ::wtf!?:: estados unidos?
him: si si, pero que pais?
me: ...las vegas nevada?
him: ahhh! yo nomas ido a pais de new york.
me: umm ok?
him: cuantos anios?
me: 20
him: o yo 26. no mal?
me: umm...
him: te puedo llevar a un coffee?
me: ay, me tengo que ir.
him: me das tu numbero para ir a coffee?
me: uhh...no tengo celular.
him: te doy el mio.
me: vale?
him: no eres soltera, novio?
me: si?
him: tu email
me: si tengo email, pero me tengo que ir.
him: mi numero?
me: no tengo pluma. me tengo que ir.
him: ...uh...bueno, mucho...gusto?
me: si si..

then he tried doing the spanish 2 kiss thing...but instead of going for my cheeks he went towards my lips. good thing i moved my face soooo far away from him. he smelled like liquor, coffee, and smokes. it was GROSSSSS!

i was disgusted and tried to hurry away into the computer lab, hoping he didn't follow me. i still wonder if all this was part of whatever they were filming. now, i know i always wanted to be on tv since i was little, but even if this was for tv...im not letting some weird ass italian guy kiss me! sick! lol

wonderful weekend.

so thursday night we went to this one bar here where i live cuz there's a live band. i was kindda just there not really talking to anyone, just being the freaky kid that stands there next to you lol. i had a gin and tonic and pretty much chilled on my own. now we all know how much i HATE being alone...so i figured i'd talk to the girl in my culture class...so whatever, we talked about how her beer and lemon tasted like shit. then jack came by and we went outside. we kept going in and out. till the end we just decided it was too smokey inside so we sat up against this wall. then my friend katie's boyfriend came out, we'll call him, Jesse. jesse came and talked to me and jack for a little, then when jack went back inside, i decided i'd stay outside for a little longer. then jesse sat down next to me....before i continue, let me tell you about what i told him a few weeks back...

maybe 2 or 3 weeks ago, we went to algorta for their carnaval thing. well we had drank a bottle of wine, and like 2 whiskey and coke here at home. when we went to one of the guy's houses, i took a drink of pure vodka that sheri had, which was sick! then i drank about half a bottle of wine there too. well i guess as we walked outside, it was kindda getting to me. you know when you get those little blackouts? well yeah. i was with katie and jesse, and well, i have a tendency to talk out of my ass when i drink a little too much. well, as i stood there with serena and them waiting for some guy to come out of the bar, katie mentioned how jesse was dressed up as a sancho, then one of the guys told her "well since he's the sancho, how about you pay him back and...make out with dini"...and we kindda looked at him all disgusted and said no. then my smart ass goes off on a tangent. "omg katie remember how mad you got when those girls were all looking at jesse? haha...well i remember the very first day at the orientation, i saw jesse and thought he was SOOOOO hot. but when i found out he was your boyfriend, he was totally off limits! and i mean, if any girl tries to get with him, i'll kick their ass cuz i got your back."

WHAT THE FUCK!?!?! i say the stupidest things, sometimes i wonder why god gave me a mouth! so yes, i basically told jesse i think he's super cute....anyway, back to thursday night. jack left and jesse sat down next to me. i was a little uncomfortable cuz he was sitting next to me, and since everyone here likes to start rumors, i was like "shiit! this is gonna get back to katie and she's gonna HATE me! she already knows i think he's cute!" so i was kindda wanting to leave, but jesse kept talking to me. he's a hella cool guy, so i wasnt gonna be rude and walk away. then he said "i can't sit on this lopsided wall. im going to go sit at the bench over there, want to come with me?" ummm...ok? so i went and sat with him...but there was a decent space between us. while we sat there, we had a little heart to heart about how this program blows and we want to go back home! he was saying he was so frustrated with these guys that they're lucky he hasn't knocked them out yet! and i kindda hinted at the jack being a big mouth thing. and he said how me and him were on the same page, and that not even katie understood him and just told him to relax and enjoy spain. as we were talking, there were other people from the program outside, then unzzel came and sat in between us...

friday when we went on the excursion for school, serena happened to be sitting in front of jesse and katie. i sat with serena and said hi to them, but only katie replied. umm ok. when we got off to take pictures really quick, i noticed how katie and jesse went their own separate ways every time. i was kindda thinking they were mad, then i started freaking out about "omg! what if someone made up some crazy shit and told katie about me and jesse sitting outside last night?!" but i guess they were just doing their own thing. we had our lunch together, and everything was cool there after. but thennnnn! that night was when i was totally weirded out by everything (has nothing to do with jesse and katie anymore lol)

now, remember i mentioned serena told me jack tells sheri about everything they say? and i guess that whole apartment is having issues, or was. friday night i was with jack and when i went to his room to get my jacket he told me "hey...why is serena mad at me? is it because sheri told her about the lunch meat she took? i didn't tell sheri. she was just bitching and blamed B, but i said it wasn't him. is serena mad because of that because she's being really rude with me. i know you know because you guys are really good friends." and i just looked at him and said i didn't know (eventhough i did. and she was mad at him for that) and said he should talk to her and see what SHE has to say. so we went to jose's house, and again jack kept asking and trying to see why serena was being so different and if she was mad because he hangs out with sheri alot. i simply told him to talk to her, but to remember to stay true to the friends he came with, not to just leave serena out in the cold and talk shit about her. when we went back to their apartment, he went in to serena's room to talk to her, then we left to the metro. in the metro he kept saying how he felt really upset about the whole thing and he didn't want to go out. i kept telling him to not worry and they just have to clear everything up. well when sheri got there, they started talking about the whole situation. earlier, serena had told me that jack said i was the one that told him serena called sheri cruela. so i was kindda mad at jack...but then i hear sheri tell him "i just think it's messed up that serena even talks shit about her own best friends, yet she tries to be so innocent. i was the one that put my foot down when she started talking shit about her own friend who she plans trips with." WTF?! so i quickly speak up and told her "look sheri, if you have to say something to me, im right here. instead of talking about me indirectly, tell me to my face. im here, and i WILL clear everything up with you and jack." (this was not in a bitchy attitude at all) thats when they told me. they said that serena talks shit, well more like, tells them everything i say to her. sheri told me "look, all i have to tell you is don't tell her any of your secrets cuz we ALL know about them" then i brought up the cruela thing and they both said that serena was the one that said I was the one that said it first.

so im so lost on who to believe! it sucks because i dont know if serena is being truthful about jack being a gossip and telling sheri everything, or if both jack and sheri are being truthful with saying serena tells them what i vent to her about. so i decided i would NOT tell anyone anything anymore and better yet, just write everything in here or tell to my sister through AIM. im so tired of all these stupid little games these 19 year old kids play. im done with high school, i guess they aren't.

yesterday was my first real soccer game. i went to see Athletic vs Villareal. it was so much fun! it only sucked that we were sitting by this fence thing that blocked part of the action. i bought a pretty cool athletic scarf for 12 euros. and now we cant wait to go to another game! i want to go to the one on april 6th, so if my sister wants, we'll go see it! lol

my family's dumb...well some.

sometimes i wonder why my family is kindda, not all there. for example, if you're my friend on myspace, why are you showing your parents my pictures? i understand no one in my family has been to spain (i dont think so atleast) and you're probably excited saying "MAMIIII! mire! dinora fue a ver esta iglesia que esta MUYYYY grande! y tambien mire! ay...porque tiene esa cosa dinora en su nariz? y mire, esta tomando cerveza!"...but really, how my sister said, myspace is a place for friends not family. i might as well send all my pictures to be posted on the little town my parents are from's website. if i wanted the whole damn world to know what im doing on my spare time, i would send everyone a cd with all my pictures. some things are just meant to be private my friend.

anyway! well my pretty little dumb cousin has fallen into the immature trap of "ahh! you posted a bulletin saying you're mad at me...well take this! im taking you off my top friends!" do i care? no, not really. maybe if you were my favorite cousin in the whole wide world who i told all my secrets too, and who i spent most of my childhood with, and who took me everywhere and we were inseperable (mooney please note i just described you! haha)...but really, you're just the cousin that...well, is the daughter of my dad's dumb little sister. in all reality, you're a cool girl, but you definitely dont know how to be a cousin. you prefer your boyfriend's little family over your own. and dont think i'll ever forget how you would rather spend time with your dumb boyfriend over going to mass in memory of our dead grandma. take me off your top friend's page, i can play that game too...fuck you whenever i get home! you're just someone that lives at my GRANDPA'S house...




ok, so my venting for the day is done with. i think i might go comment her page right now and "see how she's doing and how things are going?" lol...i have an hour and a half to kill...i think i might book my barcelona flight back home and see if i can squeeze in another city to visit the following weekend with my sister.

eh.

i talked to unzzel about feeling like shit. she felt kindda bad cuz i guess she wasn't meaning to seem like a bitch. but i still feel weird around her. when its just me and her its cool, but throw sheri or jack in the mix and it's back to crap-town. like i found out my brother was coming the weekend before my sister gets here, and unzzel was excited for me, then later on she said she was probably gonna be in amsterdam for that weekend. then i remembered how jack is always bitching in front of me and saying "oh unzzel we have to book our amsterdam flight!" i didnt get an invite, and especially not now that my brother is coming. but fuck it. i can have my time with my brother...even if we wont get to do much cuz my roommates wont be here :[

idk if i wrote in here about my co-worker telling me my gay ass old job wasn't going to give me my bonus for the year...well i cried and decided i would write to every politician i could to tell them how i was treated and how it was a bullshit job. well, i was checking my bank account the other day and i noticed a fatty deposit from the department that gave us our checks, $1,347. pretty nice! good thing i got lazy and never wrote to anyone.

now i gotta finish planning spring break and see where im gonna take my brother and sister. bilbao is kindda gay, so dont expect to be in like an "ooooh ahhh" city like barcelona or madrid...all we have is the guggeinheim haha

whatev.

so i woke up this morning and heard unzzel calling farrell. apparently they made plans to go to the beach, yet i didnt get a knock on the door to see if i wanted to go. this was after i opened my shutters and kindda cried a little (i know! whyyyy?!) so i jumped in the shower and we headed to meet everyone. well as soon as we get to the apartment unzzel ran to sheri and jack. i noticed them get weird when i walked in too. i went to talk to serena about spring break, blah blah blah. then we left. as we rode the metro, those 3 stuck together and totally ditched me. me tiraron indirectas, pero bueno, no me iba a poner a pelear alli en medio metro! so i notice that unzzel is being extremely distant with me and being kindda rude. the whole time on the beach, i was super quiet. even b noticed and he asked what was wrong. i guess its weird to see me quiet? but anyway, on our way back, sheri was super drunk. she walked into a bar to buy cigarettes and the bar tender told her to close the door but sheri just kept walking and said "joder" to her...which i guess means like fuck you. the bartender walked out and was like "what did you tell me cuz i couldnt hear you!" and sheri just kept mumbling and said joder again and tried to walk off but she tripped and busted her toe on the side walk. it was funny when the bartender was like "si vete aver si te trastornas un poco mas" then bam sheri fell and the bartender was like "wtf! now look at your feet" and sheri and unzzel walked in to fix her foot up. it sucked, like her toe was seriously split. it was bruising all ugly too. so we left, and i still felt really bad and wanting to cry cuz i hate being ignored and treated like shit. i was really wishing my sister was here so i would give a rats ass about what they do. the whole time i was thinking that im better then the gossip girls and im not gonna let their little circle of shit get to me. stupid cliques based on shit talking always end up breaking anyway. eventually they'll all be talking shit about each other and thats the end of that. but i just cant stand this shit right now. the other people i talk to here are cool and everything, but idk if i could be hanging out with them all the time. its just i feel so bad right now. if i could i would jump on the first plane to vegas and go home. i didnt think this trip was gonna be like a shit talking high school trip. if i wanted that i wouldda stayed back home to deal with the "friends" i have back there. this is supposed to be fun and something i look back on and enjoy, not something that reminds me of how shitty some people are. i hate people that act like that, and i hate being the one thats out of the loop. it sucks that they all talk shit because im friends with serena. the whole time they kept saying things about her and they kept telling me "i know you're gonna run back and tell her"...like seriously, i havent told her shit to this day. its all jack and his big mouth. not me! im just her friend, not her drama started.

im so done with this shit and all the fake people. but i seriously need to have a talk with unzzel and tell her its not fair to be acting like this with me over some stupid shit jack told her (cuz i KNOW he did....no se le cose nada al jotinguis)....i'll tell her how i told him it was frustrating to be around her in barcelona cuz she was so chill...simply because im such a worry wart. i'll tell her how i was upset that i didnt get an invitation to bilbao or the dinner...and im gonna tell her how i feel when she whispers shit to everyone else and leaves me behind like some dog. you just dont do that shit to other people, especially not your roommate.

coman mierda mamones

so today was this huge day for the little anarchist that compose this damn area. apparently there were gonna be some horrible demonstrations aka riots at our school. my 130 class got canceled and my teacher told me to just go home. so i did, but there was no way i'd catch the 1135 bus, so i went to the computers. while i was there, unzzel sheri and jack were there too. we sat there checked our stuff, then a group of kids walk in screamin shit in basque...something about independence y quien chigados sabe....so then they said "we ask you to leave the computer room and follow us, or else you are an accomplice." yeah ok...i stayed there. then when we were leaving fuckin unzzel made plans with sheri to go to the city....but didnt even care to invite me! she just looked at me and smiled then said "we're going to bilbao...bye" umm...ok? i dont know why she does that. sheri causes sooo much drama, yet unzzel is still all up in her ass. i dont get it. but i was soooo mad today when she did that. first the fuckin dinner, she tells me about it but doesnt invite me she just brushes it off with "its only for my spanish class" yet sheri is inviting half the fuckin program. then with this shit about going off without even INVITING me....i seriously almost cried. but you know what, FUCK YOU! i dont need her ass for anything. im super pissed off, but what can i do right? i just gotta find myself some other friends that dont act all shady like her. i really could give a shit about her. if the damn protesters get her, me VALE MADRE!

ps; thanks to the revelation my sister just told me, or posted....i hope my cousins die! not literally...but they're FUCKIN STUPID!!!!

why would you tell my dad "get on myspace and see her pictures!!! in one, she either partied too hard or got a nose ring!" bitch i hope you fuckin burn in.....!!! ahhhh im pissed off! is she trying to get back at me because my dad told her mom she's fuckin her boyfriend?! im soooo pissed off! i hope they die!!!!

mexican food? more like chef boyardee

so the other day, saturday i think it was, me and unzzel went to this shopping mall type thing with a huge grocery store. thats the place where you can buy "gourmet" (aka LIMES!) and foreign foods (mexican stuff, peanut butter). ok so me & unzzel stocked up on some salad, wine, potatoes, etc. then i bumped into the foreign section. tell me why only the top shelf is "mexican food"? want to know what was there? pace salsa, hard taco shells, flour tortillas (8 for like 3 euros), la costeña chiles serranos and pinto beans. so i was REALLY craving mom's beans, so i bought the €2.50 can of beans. and what the hell, get the €1.50 chiles too!

ok, i made beans today with the grease from the beacon i made the other day (which was SUPER salty) and when i opened the can, it smelled like freakin spaghetti-o's! i know, i was pissed off that i paid so much for the damn beans and they're not even beans! they're some cheap-o chef boyardee beans! whatever, i made them....they taste so white! lol like cheap shit i swear! the chiles are bomb....reminds me of mexico! i might get the runs though...im eating them like candy with my beans right now.

ummm...oh! monday night i was so mad! first i was crying in the kitchen (where we get the best internet) because i got an e-mail from an ex-coworker where he tells me im not getting my bonus because they extended the damn day i was supposed to be working. so i started crying because i was sooooo mad! (plus i was counting on that money for spring break). then i tried to cheer up because farrell invited people over. ok whatever. there were 5 guys, unzzel and farrell playing "asshole". i just watched for 2 rounds. farrell was pretty wasted. then i got tired at like 11 and went to my room. at 1130 i hear the door bell. yeah, our neighbor from upstairs came down & told them to be quiet cuz they couldnt sleep & we were being too loud. which was true because they kept yelling and screaming, being "stupid americans". so they all left to some bar at almost midnight.

farrell and mobster got home at 4am! keep in mind we have school in the morning. i heard farrell say to get woken up at 740 to go to class. 8am come around & unzzel is at the front door yelling for him to get up cuz she's leaving. farrell didn't make it to class tuesday. tuesday he had a midterm for his spanish class. we're not allowed to make up tests. too bad farrell :] (he wrote a bullshit email to his teacher & she's letting him make it up >:[ notttt fair because he was hungover, not sick)


my sister got her ticket to come to bilbao!!! im soooo excited! only the little punk is talking shit because i said it would defy the purpose of coming here if she stayed with me till may.....haha jk...but think about it, she'll be stuck with my roommates most of the time. and idk if they'd be cool for her to be staying here without paying rent or the bills. but whatev...if she wants to be away from her gym for so long...do it lol

fuck you

im about ready to kick someone's ass & just go home! last night i was with serena the whole time & i guess unzzel, jack, and sheri went out to look for costumes. well as soon as i told serena, she knew something was up. they got back with a box of bacardi (a bottle of it, some tonic water, & mint leaves for mojitos) and they're acting all weird with me and serena. ok whatever. when we were heading to the mexican kid's house, i guess sheri started talking to serena asking about the things she had told jack about her. apparently jack told sheri that serena was talking shit. so when serena told me at mexican kid's house, i KNEW jack must have told unzzel i was a bit frustrated in barcelona. then i hear unzzel bitching with sheri and some other kid about how i kept pouring drinks..basically bitching that i was using THEIR bacardi. seriously, wtf!? i dont bitch when they eat my fuckin food i BUY and they just buy fuckin cereal and lettuce! i was sooo pissed! thats when i knew i was back in fuckin high school cuz of jack being a gossip girl!

then later, i stopped drinking the damn bacardi....i just had one halfassed drink. anyway, farrell asked me if i wanted to head back home to go to some bar across the river. and me being the kind stupid bitch that i am said "no, i have my stuff at serena's place, plus i dont want to leave unzzel by herself." so he leaves with some of the other girls. when it's time for everyone else to leave, i tell unzzel if she wants to come with me to serena's house (no lie, 2 blocks away) to get my metro card & some money.....you know what she tells me? "i dont want to walk more than i have to. you'll be fine. im not going"

FUCK YOU!!!!! when she felt like there was a freakin need to walk a million blocks in barcelona cuz she didn't know where she was going, i didnt bitch about "ayyy i dont want to walk more than i have to".....chinga tu madre babosa estupida!

so then jack said he forgot his wallet & i said i was going back. but when me & serena start walking off, jack bounces off with unzzel and the new people they decided were their bffs....so me & serena said fuck it & walked off alone. then jack bounces back & asks why we're mad. then he looks at me & said "you're mad....i don't believe you're ok how you say...tell me whats wrong." big red light....nunca jamas le vuelvo a decir algo a ese pinche rejolinero! so i walked in with serena & sat on her bed as jack came back asking if we were mad at him. when he left both of us knew he was gonna bounce back & tell sheri & unzzell "uuuuu! they're mad!" then start slabbing on a thousand pounds of bullshit!

like an hour later farrell calls my cell..."WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?!" with this panicked voice. i told him i was at serena's & he's like "omg! me & unzzel were so worried.....dont walk home....stay there because you're NOT walking home alone" yeah suck it mamones....muy pinches preoucupados si me dejan como una mensa sin metro pass para que no vaya a ningun pinche lado. vayan a chingar a su madre malditos!

so that was that. i slept on the couch cushions on serena's floor. woke up at 1030 & left back home. todos los pendejitos estaban dormiditos, y yo haciendo mucho ruido para que les doliera mas la cabeza por su pinche borrachera.

i still can't believe how fuckin fake some people can be. but whatever. haber quien cuida a la pinche de unzzel cuando se emborrache. im not doing anything for anyone anymore!!!!

good thing im going to spring break with serena...she's not the partying girl. speaking of....we wanted to do trip 2, the one where we go to london. i think we get there the 15 & leave the 17 in the morning....so you and our brother can go watch the march 15th game then you come with us the 17th. or we can possibly leave barcelona a day early so you can get to london and watch the march 30th game. whatever you wanna do. just remember to buy like a duffel bag & pack it in with your suitcase cuz i doubt you wanna be carrying a suitcase as we go back and forth through the cities (even if its just to a hostel)....but como quieras. i think im just gonna ship that huge jacket & my heels with you so i wont have to carry them. so if you wanna bring 2 suitcases, its up to you :]
i just dont know how you'll do it with the stuff you're supposed to bring me or take back with you....just think of whats better for you....

anomalie! spring break plans...choose!

so we have spring break written out...2 trips to choose from, just that anomalie has to choose which city she'd like to visit...

trip 1:
milan 2 days
rome 4 days
paris 5 days
barcelona 3 days

trip 2:
london 2 days
rome 5 days
paris 5 days
barcelona 3 days

orrrr we can do frankfurt germany for 3 or 4 days....but theres really nothing on there. we found all those flights for about 85 euros...plus hostels & taxes we'll add later....so is that cool? or is there somewhere else you'd like to go see?

i still say you come to bilbao then london after to go back home? just let me know which would work or which you like better. we'd leave either the 15 or 16 from here...so try to get here the 13....serena or jack will get you...good?

3 months :[

so i've been in spain for almost a month now. its crazy. there are times when i miss home, then others when i dont even think about it. idk why today i thought about how i miss being back home. it's pretty much the same shit, only without working and coming home to mom & my sister waiting for me. i kindda miss work too. not the working part, but just the environment. i've been jobless for exactly a month now. i miss all my co-workers! its kindda sad & stupid, but man! i worked with all those people for 2 years!

i also miss talking to my sister....also the fighting lol. like, i talk to her on aim, but it's not the same. i'm listening to the song from juno & i'm getting all teary eyed thinking about me & my sis hanging out lol....uuu! and how we loved talking shit! i mean, me & unzzel do it sometimes, but its not as great as talking shit with your siblings! in barcelona, me & my brother went off on our inside jokes & talking shit about people while everyone just stared on & kindda laughed haha

i for sure miss mom's cooking & daddy's nagging. or how mom always yelled for anything lol it's different not hearing her yell at the top of her lungs....or dad walking around all slowly touching his belly saying he survived cancer haha

it's a lot to get used to. but i get over it sometimes. as long as i take naps, im good. butttttt my sister's coming for spring break, so i might go back into my little sad moments. i hate having a taste of family life when i see my siblings. thanks to my brother that happened lol

now i just gotta fix spring break. unzzel & grace were talking about it last night & they have southern spain & italy for 10 days :[ 10 days....thats the majority of our damn trip! i gotta talk to serena & see what she plans. we wanna travel a lot...visit all these places! thats why i need my sister to tell me where she wants to go so we can fit it in. i love italy, but 10 days is a little much damnit!

great weekend in barcelona!

so i was online last night talking to my sister & the damn computer turned off & we couldn't turn it on. i think i exceeded the limit. but anyway...before she kills me!

i did get my nose pierced yesterday. i did take into consideration what my sister told me....and i didn't think it would look good, but it does. everyone's been telling me it fits my face, so i guess. unless they're being bitches & lying to my face!


this was like an hour after i got it done, so its still red. it looks a little better now that its a day old lol

but we should talk about my weekend rather than the piercing! it was great! even if there was ALOT of bitching from unzzel's part. our hostel guys were incredible! they were soooo funny. last night we got drunk with them lol. i was mostly online, but i'd go back & forth. one guy, dreads, was such a perv! he kept trying to kiss on unzzel's neck haha! but they were great guys!

it was GREAT to see my brother. he got a little drunk, but he wasn't as bad as some of the guys from the program. apparently one fell into the street & his face was bleeding....

omg! when we were coming back home, we were in line at the plaza catalunya waiting to get on the bus (oh god, i'll go off on that soon!) & we notice a group of people standing around. apparently, this little old man was laying on the floor cuz his head was bleeding! there was all this blood everywhere. we dont know what happened to him! but i was sad! he was so pale. you know how much i love old people...i almost cried!

so yeah, we left to catch our bus at fuckin noon!!!! we got on the bus at 1225...we got to the airport at 1....our plane started to board at 115...we got our ticket at 120....we ran to catch the flight & got on last minute. why were we late? unzzel who thinks everything is cool. these weed smokers i swear! she's so chill about everything that it pisses me off sometimes lol. but we made it is all thats important :]


now we're planning our spring break. you better make sure you're coming anomalie so i can book your shit!

bullshit!

it rained last night & today. im pissed! but it makes me even more mad that i didnt go watch the barcelona game. rafa marquez played! he was injured last week for bilbao, & tonight, where i couldda watch the whole fuckin shit, i was SLEEPING! the only damn day i take a siesta, and they play my boy! bullshit!

can you believe they told me it would be hard for me to find marquez stuff here cuz "he's not popular here". can you believe that shit! the fuckin captain for the mexican national team is NOT popular in fuckin spain! they hate us mexicans here...bitches!

anyway, im mad. i DIDNT get my nose pierced. i keep changing the topic when unzzel & grace mention it. im kindda scared. but whatev.

we're gonna drink the rest of the vodka my brother left behind. we're the only people in the hostel haha....our guys here (the owners) are brazilian & pretty damn amazing! they hook it up with the 500 shot bar!

anomalie, remember i said "sundays are boring ALL over the world"....well it's true & its worse in spain. the damn grocery store is closed too!!!! the only things open are expensive ass restaurant where they sell 5€ hamburgers! lol

fun but irritating

wellllll! so far, things have been good. theres still some issues i gotta get through, but whatever. barcelona is a beautiful city so i try not to worry about what unzzel can do, but whatev. my brother is being a fuckin drunk ass that does stupid shit, you know how he can get! he tries talking like a ::spaniard:: but he cant cuz he does this stupid accent! like the guys here at the hostel are brazilian so he tries to imitate them. whatever hes a drunk dumbass lol

well unzzel es una llorona que llora por todo! como horita, esta chillando quien sabe porque. segun tenia sueño y horita esta hablando con grace llorando por nada. se sigue disculpando y que ::ayy perdona que estoy de mamona y no quiero salir:: like it seriously bugs me. en la mañana esta de mamona porque mi hermano estaba en la computadora checkando su email. me hace enojar tando de vez en cuando. entiendo que cuando esta tomada actua como mamona, pero cada el pinche rato! no manches guey....callate el osico! no la entiendo cuando trae su maldito attitude...ahhh i should just shut up!

ahhh another thing that mom cant know...im getting my nose pierced tomorrow! :[ butttt only if its a smalllll ring. i might take it out my last day in la...before i get back home. and by the way...im super excited that my sister is coming for spring break! get ready to go to london, paris, milan, rome, and maybe portugal!

why don't i live here?!

so i got to barcelona at like 10, got to the hostel at like 11. we walked around for quite some time apparently. we ate lunch at this niiiiice bar restaurant thing. but ahhhh im in love with this city! everything is so well arranged. the streets aren't randomly scattered like in madrid. we havent seen the really cool sights like la sagrada familia cathedral thing. we just passed by one museum. we walked down gran via & went to some shops. i went into this boutique & bought a jacket for 20euros...pretty nice!

now im trying to get some rest cuz i guess my brother wants to walk around & hit up la sagrada familia. we might grab some junk food for along the way.

ohh! so hostels arent that bad! this one has free internet (2 computers) 3 toilets & 3 showers, a kitchen & living room. its pretty cool.

but omg! if you get the change, visit barcelona! it's amazing so far! (pictures on tuesday!!!)

the weekend better be good!

so friday morning we leave to barcelona. i need to buy a small suitcase. hopefully the "chinese store" sells some cheap ones.

this trip is gonna be fun. im just a little nervous to spend it at a hostel. you know, after watching that movie, you do get a little scared. but whatever, my brother & 2 of his friends are supposed to be there this weekend. im just a little pissed off cuz my brother told me to book him with us. butttt we're staying 4 nights, he's only staying 2, so he'd have to pay those extra 2 as well. so i booked his room seperate...WITH MY CREDIT CARD! i kept writing him on fb to see if i had the information right, how long he was staying, what time he arrived & whatnot. but his stupid ass hasn't written back to me!

i hate when people leaving me hanging like that. im sure it's just the type of person i am, i've been like this since i was a baby. i have to have everything that very same minute. but damn! he wants me to book him with us, yet we're going for different amount of days, now he wont even reply to my messages. WTF?! so whatever. he better get a hold of me fast, we leave in 2 days & he needs to pay me back! so far it's been $21, plus if i have to cancel or he doesn't show up, i don't know what the hell i have to do! i sent him the information, so he better be there!

and umm, everyone in this program is gonna be going there this weekend, except for lucy, hyper, and ricitos. good because i wasn't gonna put up with their shit. seriously, i understand we wanna see everything while we're here, but fuckin hyper takes it to the extreme. he wants to hike everywhere & walk long distances. im all for losing weight while im here, but holy shit! with this kid im gonna die! not cuz im gonna be walking alot, but he makes us walk up mountains. a fat girl like me can't be doing that shit so often...its not good for my fat little heart!

and then lucy and ricitos!! they are always bitching about "i dont want to meet americans! i wanna talk to locals!" stupid sluts, stfu! ricitos was planning to cancel her reservation in madrid when she found out my brother was going to barcelona. like seriously, you can fuck with the bilbao natives, but NOT my brother! but im just glad im not gonna be around those two when they storm off with the strangers to some "discoteCKKa!" ugh! yesterday they saw some ugly guys getting into a car, and ricitos was all taking double takes and smiling at them "over her shoulder" to boost their ego. yeah okkkkk! like they need that skinny, buck toothed, clown hair girl boosting their ego. i really dont know why she thinks she's the hottest shit to hit spain. she's a pretty girl, but not like some exotic bombshell.

im so irritated with some of the people here. i think i just need some sleep. and i swear if i hear another person say the word "tio" refering to some guy (its like the equivilant of guey..."oye tio, tienes un cigarillo?") im gonna choke them! i can do the whole "vale" thing, but not "tio" or "tia"...i only use those referring to mooney's parents or the other siblings of my parents. i swear these spaniards are getting worse & worse! how can i walk around talking to old ladies that could be my grandma & saying "perdona, se te callo tu creditrans"....it does not register in my head that USTED is not used here. I cannot speak using VOSOTROS, and im not going to use it EVER! imagine this summer in mexico, if i start using that shit everyone's gonna look at me weird. and to tell you the truth, i don't know how or when to use it haha

ahhhhh this is getting carried away. i should shower & make some ready made pasta, it's 8pm

edit;; 11:53pm;
i havent done my homework :x
i read what i had to read, but i havent done my presentation i have to do thanks to hyper & his stupid politics talk :[
my brother wrote back. we're ready to party friday night! lol
i found stupid/cute graphics for myspace haha

fuck living with guys!

so last post i titled it that cuz i guess farrel found some jalapeños at the euroski. but the little bitch didnt bring me some AFTER i told him to bring some. grrr i hate him sometimes!

which reminds me! today i had class from 10 to 430...then at 430 me & annie caught the bus to go to bilbao. we had the basque folkdance class at 6, so we had some pintxos at this bar with some cafe con leche. soooo we went to class, danced blah blah blah. i got irritated with lucy and ricitos cuz they were totally ignoring me. lucy had the nerve to butt me out of the line i was in. it's like we're in second grade again & fighting to be with our friend. (yeah she butt me out cuz she wanted to stand next to unzzel) whatever lol. so when we were gonna leave they say "where do you want to eat" (directed to unzzel) then they add "we should go to where we live" but i said i didn't want to cuz i was broke & only have 20€ but that was for groceries. lucy kindda just stared at me & said "its ok" like i needed her permission to go or something. stupid bitch.

so whatever. me & unzzel went to the eurocera or whatever the grocery place is called, & bought 6 packets of pasta, some orange juice, pineapple/grape juice, water, oranges, bread, & turkey breast. i was planning on making mexican food (carne con papas...how mommy makes it!) since farrel said he'd bring me some jalapeños. we're coming up the stairs to our floor & we get this smell of good food. we open the door & sure enough, farrel had cooked. we see he's in our mini living room sitting in "my chair", so it was obvious someone was over. we get closer to the stove & see that the food is ALL gone!

fuckin mobster and B were over, so they cooked for themselves. like if it was their apartment, just the 3 guys. so whatever, me & unzzel got mad because it's SUPER fucked up! we all live here (not mobster & B lol) & me & her cook for eachother & him if he's here. but fuckin farrel cooks for his stupid bullshit friends! notttt fair! we buy the food & he sometimes eats it. then we bought the toilet paper & napkins, yet he doesn't bother to go buy some when he sees we're running out of tp. BULL-FUCKIN-SHIT!

so i cooked just for me & unzzel & we ate in her room cuz the stupid guys are in the living room (yeah last metro comes in half an hour, yet they're still hella cozy in our couches. they better not spend the night). so me & unzzel are super pissed that farrel acts like he's the only one that lives here & pays all the rent. it's fuckin bullshit. once his stupid friends leave, we're gonna tell him if he wants to make things even, he better start buying some food also, even if he doesn't feel like eating here. & that he can't be having his stupid friends over all the time. i mean, i like the guys, but they can't be fuckin sleeping here everyother day. 2 nights ago mobster spent the night, then last night farrel slept over there. we can't have the rooms open just like that. our landlords come tuesday, wtf!

ugh! so im pissed off as hell. can't even shit in peace with these guys over! haha

we found jalapeños!

so school was lame as always. buttt before i got there, i was talking to one of the girls about saturday. we both agreed that the club was pretty shady. no lie, it was like a rave...in the middle of factories haha

but anyway, this girl told me that will thinks he got drugged that night because he doesn't remember from 3am to 9am...doesnt remember leaving but remembers at like 9am he was walking around the streets of bilbao. now, the club is at the second to last metro stop...which is like 4 stops from downtown bilabo...so he must have walked a shitload! so the douchebag spaniard that stole his phone also stole his driver's license. good thing they left his metro pass with him or else he wouldda never gotten home.

hearing about this got me scared. like i know i was drinking before the club & some stuff was blurry cuz of it, but damn! it couldda happened to any of us! shane wasnt even drunk! but good thing i was with someone the whole time...which brings me to point 2

while at the club, i kept dancing with farrel. like the whole time (along with random guys from the program haha) & i slightly remember kissing someone. it was like a peck though....and well i dont know who it was. i dont remember the face lol me & unzzel concluded it might have been farrel who i kissed (or he kissed me. idk haha). cuz he has been a little weird. whatever. we were both pretty drunk. but now i know to NOT drink enough to cause me to have baby black outs cuz shit like that can happen...kissing your roommate is NO BUENO! (how he says haha)

first weekend in bilbao

so our first weekend in bilbao was CRAZY! aside from there being a lot of people cuz of the barcelona game (which was a tie! damnit), it was just a crazy weekend. i got home at like 9 to shower & get ready. mobster was over with farrel, then B & his girl came over. i guess surfer & annoying aaron got here while i showered. well i waited for unzzel & grace to come, but i guess hyper got them into a bar in bilbao. so everyone thought i wasnt going to fever (club outside bilbao) but then i got a hold of unzzel so she could let me borrow her blow dryer so i could start getting ready. at like 11 i finished & went drinking into our kitchen. farrel made me 2 huge kalimotxos. then B told me to drink a vodka tonic, which was basically all vodka. so i decided i would stop drinking cuz i didnt wanna make an ass of myself. but the vodka got to me pretty quick. i was just laughing ALOT & talking to everyone.

so we head out to the club. its like 45 minutes away cuz its the last stop. so that was a super long ride, & by the time we got there, i had to pee. soooo bad. like to the point that i felt like it was starting to leak haha so sheri was super drunk too & she dragged me behind a dumpster & we peed back there lmao! i cant believe i that shit, but when you gotta go, you gotta go. so we get in the club & me and serena got another kalimotxo. we drank that in like an hour. the club was pretty weird. they had techno in the top floor, hip hop in the small room, & rock and weird shit in the main floor. i remember dancing with jack to red hot chilli peppers haha

pero bueno, the spaniards were in love with us. i guess there was barely any girls. there were guys that would touch us out of nowhere, but all the guys would push them away. then at the main floor there was this creepy little dude that when i told him i was mexican he told me he was going in the summer to meet some girl he met online lol. unzzel was dancing with some guy & was kissing up on him. but i guess jack got jealous. so we left at 530 cuz farrel left our asses!

we get home & i went to bed at 7. it was horrible! i had glass all over my shoes. but i went to bed finally, freezing, but i slept. that was until noon when my phone starts blasting!

i look at it & it says "will" on it. so im like..."ok, what does he want? he lives downstairs" so i picked up. first thing they do is say my name really loud. im thinking its will right, well WRONG! this guy is a spaniard....talking to me about what i was doing & if i wanted to go to coffee with him right now. then he's like "what did you do last night?" & i said i was at fever & he said he was there too & that we danced. ummm ok. then he said "te quiero ver para tocar tu cuerpo tan lindo que tienes".....WTF?! i got pissed off & said "que chingados te pasa!? no te conozco!" then he said he would call me later, i said no & hung up. turns out this guy stole will's phone last night. poor kid. i hope this fucker didn't make a lot of calls with it.

today i pretty much just slept the whole time. washed my pants with the peed on pant legs & wet clothes from our friday trip. then went to watch the soccer match i was supposed to be at. butttt now since everyone wants to see picture...i posted the ones from the weekend :]


these were heading to el bosque pintado (i know you're gonna wikipedia it lol)

it started at the bottom...
then we reached the top of the mountain. but we had to keep going still.
then we made it! can you see the eye that is formed with those 5 trees?
so before, we were in Lekeitio & we saw the island...
then we started to walk on this mossy walk towards it to eat lunch (see my grocery bag?)

then i fell & my pants, sweater, jacket, hair, & purse got soaked :'[

great driving skills

so i havent written in here yet, but we'll go back to thursday.

when i get on the bus for school, im 10 minutes early. the bus driver starts talking to me about how im the first american he's met. then he tells me i have to be part spanish cuz im beautiful [fuckin cocky bastard]. so then he starts with politics & tells me to sit up front. so he's talking to me, then like 3 stops later, he's driving through a place & this stupid lady doesn't look right & crashes into our bus!!! yeahhhh! her car got jacked up. the bus driver went back to get her info blah blah blah. we got to school a little late [good thing i leave early] & that was highlight for the trip lol

then last night we went to this stupid painted forest. we hiked up this road to the top of the mountain & it was like 5 km....CRAZY! but it felt good. we got back home at like 8:30. then unzzel wanted to go across the river to some bars or go to dinner but lucy and ricitos got a little attitude & changed the plans for us. so we went to this stupid bar close to everyone else's house & like a 25 minute walk for us. unzzel's day was ruined & she cried pretty much the whole walk back home. i was sooooo mad cuz we had to walk home when their stupid asses had to cross the street & walk like 3 blocks. but we get stuck walking like 2 miles.

then today, we got to sleep in then we went to bilbao. we went to the guggenheim with grace [second time seeing the same shit, but atleast i got to understand the artwork so its ok] but we met with hyper & had some kababs which were fuckin amazing! only, since its our first weekend here, we didn't know how packed bilbao gets! so we're eating at like 8 in this packed ass bar. then hyper decides we should climb this mountain to see all of bilbao, but we're supposed to go to dinner at like 10, how the fuck were we supposed to get ready. so i left on the damn metro, BY MYSELF! i pretty much power walked home with the keys in between my fingers to stab anyone who got near me lol

btw, hyper was the reason i woke up at 7am yesterday & stand around in the fuckin metro for 3 hours until grace got in....then another hour to catch a bus to lekeitio to find the stupid forest. butttt we got off on the wrong stop. while there, we had to wait 2 hours to get another bus. so we went to the beach & had lunch on this island. to get there, we had to walk across these rocks. on our way back, the tide had gotten higher so we had to hurry across. no one got hit by the waves....BUT ME! i fell cuz i slipped on the moss & hit my ass pretty hard. then as i hurried across, this HUGE wave came & almost took my ass out! i was soaked by the time i got across cuz i got hit twice. good thing i didnt fall in!!! now my jacket smells like wet dog :[



ps; i'll post pictures when i shrink them down, sale vale??

we officially have internet!

so last night, unzzel and i got online from her room from about 10 to midnight. a little after we found out heath ledger died :[ we saw it like right when it popped up. how tragic. but most young stars are fucked up in the head (how colin said lol)

so now! i tried getting online from my room, and what happened? i have the worst connection. if farrel is online (his room is across from mine) i have a hard time staying online. if me & unzzel are on it's cool. it's weird cuz the network is called Wireless & has no signal for me. if i try the Santa Ana or Maximo Aguirre (which are street names right by mine, weird i know!) which each have 2 bars, it never connects. so i guess it has to be like back at home with 1 bar and very low conncetion. whatev though, i can get online every night!

last night i stayed up till almost 2 talking to my sister. it was sooo nice talking to her. first we were at bilbao at this basque folkdance class then walked around looking for kababs...but the girls didn't listen to me & had lucy translate...i guess the mexican girl wasn't enough. but whatever, we walked around the city & finally found the restaurant where the guy has his stand....which is freakin amazing kababs! 2 euros for a stick thing haha. it reminded me of carne asada. i miss mexican food. anyway, mom called me while i walked around, i could barely hear her & it didn't help that a damn demostration was going on in the middle of gran via! they had signs that said "zapatero donde esta nuestro dinero" lol...funny spaniards.

then after talking to mom & dad for 15 minutes, it was kindda sad how they were telling me they missed me & mom getting a knot in her throat. but coming home & being able to talk to my sister & talk shit about everything, it was relieving! i definitely needed that.


today i just went to school in the morning & everyone was talking about what to do for carnaval next weekend. but damn, 40 euros to go to barcelona & being a 5-6 hour bus ride....no thanks. me & unzzel might just stay here. why waste money. so when i was coming home, the bus leaves the upv [the university] at 05 & 35 of every hour. i got out of class at 255...well the teacher over talked & i got out at like 258...i power walked to the other side of campus to catch the bus & what happens? right when i get on the sidewalk & start rushing to the bus, im like a whole bus behind mine....it goes away! stupid shit! so i had to wait for half an hour. good thing jack & farrel came by.

then we came home, unzzel was napping & me & farrel got online. i munched a whole bag of chips haha! ate some pizza, finished my download of the avg software, napped & woke up. now im debating whether or not to shower haha

tomorrow is thursday finally! we're going to piper's [this bar in algorta...cuz EVERYONE & their momma lives there, actually just farrel's bf's mobster & b haha & the cocky 1 year students] to watch a soccer match of athletic & sevilla or something. then at midnight we're buying unzzel a drink cuz it's her 21st! then friday we're going to a nice restaurant for her bday...don't know where. & saturday we're going to the club in bilbao called fever. hope that goes well cuz idk if they close the metro haha

i hate it here

so far, i thought this was gonna be fun, but apparently its not so great. to make things more simple...mejor escribo en español...

mis compañeros de cuarto son unos idiotas! me caen bien de vez en cuando pero los malditos me dejan sola en el pinche apartamento la mayoria del pinche tiempo! la muchacha se junta con "los losers" del grupo....una de ellas, lucy, me cae. pinche vieja mamona! nos dimos una peleada en san sebastian el fin de semana. pero bueno, horita podria irme al apartamento, pero otra vez, estaria sola sin nada que hacer. ellos se van a ir a una clase de dansa...y me da hueva de ir. pero si me voy de regreso a la casa, me voy a poner toda depre y voy a llorar otra vez. PEROOOO! podria dormir...pero creo que voy a ir a la pinche clase nomas para no quedarme sola haciendo de comer.

todo este pinche viaje he estado como la pinche mama o esposa de estos cabrones! si espero que ellos hagan de comer, me muero de la puta hambre! so me tienen estos gueyes haciendo de comer y hiendo a la tienda para comprar lo necesario. BULLSHIT! pero bueno, ya no voy hacer de comer o ir de compras hasta que estos huevones hijos de su madre vayan a comprar algo.

uuuuy! ni quiero empezar con el muchacho! el guey simplemente paga la renta para un lugar donde pueda dejar sus cosas y de vez en cuando dormir. pero me vale....que se vaya con sus amiguitos, a ver cuanto lo aguantan que se este artando su comida.

lo que he hecho es que gracias a mi amigo jack...el con que tengo muchas fotos, pero es de la otra banqueta, que se va a la casa conmigo y me hace compañia. pero hoy se fue a su casa.

y ahora, todos estan planeando las vacaciones de semana santa y yo no tengo ningun plan! me dan ganas de regresarme a casa :[

Long update

January 20^th, 2008;

Apparently I forgot to bring a journal and my plan to get online daily failed miserably! I guess I’ll begin from day 1…

I left Vegas 12 days ago, January 8^th. I tried staying up all night, and it did help that I was packing while my sister played Guitar Hero. Mom helped me pack all my shit into the two suitcases. It took us a long ass time to pack. I had so much clothes packed that I hoped to bring to Spain, but my suitcase was just too big, so I left half of what I planned on bringing at home. I filled one suitcase with as much clothes as 50lbs could get me. The second suitcase had my shoes, toiletries and books. My mom helped in the weighing part, and making everything fit. It was our last full day together, so I guess we made the best of it.

In the morning, I felt like I was going to throw up and that I couldn’t breathe. I showered and mom made me breakfast. We sat there in silence because I couldn’t look her in the eyes without crying. My brother was supposed to take me to the airport along with my mom and my sister, but apparently he was planning on just dropping me off like some dog at the curb. So right before I left, daddy came into my room in his blue robe and told me “Mija, I’m going to give you some emergency money. I always carried this amount just in case the Migra got me.” And he handed me $500. I immediately started to cry. I hugged him and cried on his shoulder, he eventually started crying with me as well. My mom walked in all scared and then she got a little teary eyed and walked away. I cried again when I went to daddy’s room to say bye. He got teary eyed and told me he loved me.

At the airport, I checked my bags in, and my mom and my sister walked me to the C gates. When mommy said bye to me, she got a huge knot in her throat and me dio la bendicion, then told me to behave. I got watery eyed and my sister told me to not cry, then hugged me and added the “don’t get drunk dumbass” at the end. I walked off crying, not wanting to look back and begin to bawl in the airport. The TSA guy checking my passport looked at me funny, but fuck him. As soon as I walked passed security, I was ok. I didn’t look back all in the fear of running back to my mom and my sister.

In LA, I literally had to run from Terminal 1 to 2 because my plane leaving Vegas was 45 minutes late. When I get to the AirFrance ticket counter, the chick couldn’t find my name. I guess they checked someone in under my name. So she fixed it all by putting priority tags on my bags. As I waited in a seat, I turn to see this kid wearing a Cristiano Ronaldo jersey and I thought of my sister and kindda laughed. There were a lot of the program kids there, but I didn’t talk to anyone cuz I wasn’t sure if they were in the program. We get in the plane, and I have an emergency row, so the French flight attendant yells at me to put my carry on in the bucket thing at top. So there goes my chance to take my airbourne. I rolled my eyes and put my stuff away. The 10 hour flight was so tiring! I couldn’t sleep and one of the guys next to me kept touching his junk and moaning as he slept. So when we finally get to Paris, I notice some UNLV kids, so I quickly ask them if they’re with the program, and thank God, I got to meet like 10 people that were headed to Madrid. We grouped together and tried to find our gate.

I guess we came across to customs or something, and we handed our passport and boarding pass to this guy in a window. He was SUPPOSED to stamp our passport, but tell me why I lucked out and was one of the unlucky people to NOT get theirs stamped!? I was pissed when I realized this in Madrid!

The flight was packed with kids from the program. I saw my roommate farrel from a distance, but didn’t say a word to him. I guess all the girls were talking about how hot he was. So we get to Madrid and get our bags and start heading towards the people from the program. Me and this girl cammy sat together and ended up being roommates in Madrid.

In Madrid, everyone went out drinking every night, that is, EXCEPT me! Yeah, crazy cuz I thought I would be going out to the clubs or bars every night. But cammy, and her friends Kim and Brit that met us up there later, never wanted to go out. We went to bed at midnight while everyone came stumbling back to the hotel at like 7am. Well, at least we didn’t make asses of ourselves. All the tours were great. I loved the Royal Palace there, and fell in love with the cathedral in Toledo! I almost cried as I explained the cathedral to my mom, only because I knew she would have loved to be there! It was just so incredible; words can’t even describe what a beautiful place that is. I imagine the church in heaven looking like that (I would have said heaven itself, but c’mon, there has to be a church in heaven right?! Haha)

All these places we went to, I wish my family was with me at the time. It sounds so corny, but I know they would have loved seeing it as well. I probably got on cammy’s nerves by how many times I said “OMG! If my mom were seeing this!” I think it was just my way of avoiding being homesick.

Last week exactly, we got here to Bilbao. I don’t know what I was expecting, I guess something more like Madrid, but when we got closer to Bilbao, it was so different. It’s more like the country side here. There’s all these mountains here, houses on hills, a river; it’s incredible! It’s not like being in Mexico type mountains, these are like green and almost touching the sky it seems! Its hard to explain, but I hope the pictures and the videos I took can show what I’m trying to explain a little better.

When we first arrived, the majority of the Bilbao students had someone waiting for them to pick them up. There were all these cute little ladies waiting for their homestay child. Me and farrel just stood there with our luggage trying to look for the person that was there for us. One of the ladies in the program called our names out and we looked at her surprised that she knew our name, but it was just to tell us that our ride was a little late.

Then he gets there. Felix hands him 20 Euros and me and farrel stand there speechless. Now, I know not every Spaniard is an Antonio Banderas or Penelope Cruz, but shiiiiit! Our ride was like 21, about 5’ 8”, chubby (I’d say like 160lbs) and had acne, or just a bad case of razor burn. He had a funny looking face. He came over to us and said hello. His name was Diego. He walked us over to his car…

Tell me why this stupid idiot kid came in a tiny car with 3 of his homies?! There was room for one of us. Some European cars are about half the size of American cars, at least this one was, and this idiot thought we both would fit, plus our luggage in their “oh-so-spacious-trunk”. FUCKING MORON!

Diego and his little homies just stare at me and farrel with this stupid expression as if we’re supposed to melt into one and drag our luggage behind his stupid car. So one that I guess is the genius of the group said he’d go to Leoia and bring his car. So me, farrel, and Diego are left in the street alone. The people in the program are gone, the sun is down, a few people are walking their dogs; but me, farrel, and Diego are still out there with 5 pieces of luggage chilling on the sidewalk. It wouldda been the perfect crime; Diego kills both me and farrel and steals are shit to sell for drug money!

About 10 phone calls from Diego (25 minutes) later, his homies reappear in another stupid little idiot car. I grip onto farrel’s arm and tell him I’m not going in a separate car from him! Then he asks if I trust our luggage with the other 2 friends, but fuck it! I don’t want to get raped then thrown in the river! I can buy new clothes!

So Diego, being the manly man that he [thinks he] is, tries to lift my bag first. He almost threw out his back. It took one homie inside and 2 outside the car to put all 4 inside the car. One of the homies ended up walking home cuz there was no room. So me and farrel go in the car with Diego and homie number 1 that is driving. As we try to settle in, homie 1 starts smoking, I guess we have to get used to Spaniard smoke quickly. Then Diego hops in. First thing Diego does is get a zig-zag paper thing and put it behind his ear. I thought it was a cigarette though. Then I happened to get a glimpse through the passenger window and see that Diego is smashing/sprinkling something into his right hand. Its some oregano looking substance. WEED! WTF?! So I poked farrel and told him. Then homie 1 whispers “Te estan mirando de atras, eh”…thanks douche, I know you’re meaning us. So Diego lights his shit up, not caring to lower the windows. So me and farrel get all the second hand smoke as we drive to our apartment.

We get to our street and notice this cute little old couple outside waving. We get off and homie 1, 2, and 3 can’t take the suitcases out. So I decided to do it instead. Diego calls the program lady and you can tell he wants to leave, I guess there’s some more weed he needs to get to at home or one of his homie’s places. As Reme our land lady stays talking to Diego, we’re talking to her husband. He’s the cutest little old man ever! He’s like 6’ 2” and has a cane, wears a little hat and has glasses. He gave me the biggest hug and told me I was beautiful. As Diego asked something about us, the old man said “Tell her they’re fine here and that the girl is gorgeous!” Then he asks if I speak Spanish and I told him I was Mexican. As soon as I said it, Diego’s homies start talking amongst themselves and say “ohhh! She’s Mexican!” I guess being Mexican is a big deal because Diego told the lady he was on the phone with “Si, nos vamos a ir. Ella es Mexicana y los entiende….es Mexicana” Stupid douche.

So Reme and her husband try carrying mine and farrel’s bags upstairs but we stopped them cuz they’re old. So we get upstairs and Reme told me our other roommate was already here. We get upstairs and meet unzzel. She’s a tall with dirty blonde hair. She seems bored and out of it. Then Reme shows us around and we choose rooms. There’s 2 rooms with locks on them, who knows why. Reme leaves and tells us she’ll be back tomorrow at 8pm to collect the rent and deposit. Then her husband tells me I have to sing some rancheras for him and I said maybe, but he was eager for me to sing.

We all unpacked, and made some spaghetti that the program gave us. As we ate, we all admitted we were super homesick. I guess that the fun in Madrid died down and we weren’t comfortable without our friends anymore, that we actually missed home. After we ate I noticed I had a missed call from my mom so I was super excited and called her back. After talking for a few minutes, we all headed out to explore our neighborhood. It was kindda sad being here the first night cuz I didn’t feel too comfortable yet. I was missing my family like crazy, but I toughed it out and didn’t cry.

The next 2 days here we went on a tour with the program. We had a placement test at the university one day and then toured the school. One of the days we toured Bilbao, the big city, then Getxo (the –tx- makes a “ch”sound), the area we’re living in. In Bilbao, I went to El Corte Ingles and bought a flat iron for 50 euro. It was expensive, but damn, I needed one badly! Then we went to the beaches and walked around. It sucked cuz Monday we had gone with some of the program kids we met in Madrid, and went to their apartment in Algorta and walked on the beaches. The damn hill was horrible! Going up sucked! I seriously thought I was going to die! As I panted trying to get up, my brother’s face flashed in the back of my mind and him poking my stomach saying “Gutsillo” and calling me fat. Then my sister talking shit and laughing cuz I never go to the gym with her. No lie, I thought my heart was gonna give out and I was gonna die. But I made it, panting super hard, but I made it. I blamed it on the cold I had haha.

Tuesday night was a free day because Wednesday we didn’t have to get up early. Our friends from Algorta, b and jack came to Las Arenas/Areeta (where we live) to go to some bars. farrel’s friend mobster came over at like 5 and we started drinking Kalimotxos. Who would have known red wine and coca cola would be so amazing! I drank about 2 bottles of wine myself. Then at like 10 b, jack, and sheri came over to go to the Green Parrot, the irish pub in our neighborhood. As we sat there, all the other people in the neighborhood came over; will, Nikki, Trevor, Danny, kel, Evan, Lauren, and annie. From there, when they were closing, we started walking to the other open bar, but they were closing too. Some of the people there followed us; flipmex, Brittany, Christy, Aaron, Laura, and surfer. We went to this bar and stayed there. Everyone was drinking like they were in a desert. I didn’t want to drink cuz I could feel the buzz and didn’t want it to get worse. So I just sat with unzzel and jack, then farrel told me to drink a beer, but that made it worse. At like 130am we headed out, and the people from Algorta wanted to walk home, but that’s like a 30 minute walk, and being drunk added to it wasn’t good. So everyone came to our place. They were being super loud and obnoxious how drunk people are, so we kept telling them to shut up. Finally, Christy yelled at Aaron, the main problem, and told him to shut up because he didn’t know how to respect the house he was in and the neighbors. So we ended up kicking Aaron out. But like 2 minutes later, farrel found the kid’s hat outside our door so we both left running around in the rain at 330am looking for Aaron. We came back home and found the guys had kicked the doors open from the locked rooms. Good thing only the screw thing was what came off, or else we’d be screwed! So we have 2 extra rooms in the apartment for when people want to come over. But I already said if our landlords get pissed off, they owe me my 250 euros from the deposit!

We started school Thursday, which kindda sucked! I have to catch the bus to and from school alone cuz farrel and unzzel leave and come home earlier than me. But anyway, this weekend, San Sebastian was going to have a huge festival, so we were trying to figure out how we were gonna go. unzzel and farrel didn’t want to wait for me, so I was mad and thinking about not going at all. Thursday afternoon, farrel ended up leaving without telling us, but unzzel, jack, serena, lucy, and myself caught a bus Friday at noon to San Sebastian.

We got to San Sebastian at like 3 or something and unzzel’s friend grace met us at the station. It was a long ass walk to her apartment, but she lived in El Centro, so everything was close to her. Apparently, there were 5 other people staying in her apartment. Friday night we didn’t go out, we just walked around. But Saturday morning we met ricitos and hyper up and walked up this huge hill were they have a monument thing of Jesus. It’s called like the Sagrado Corazon museum. It was incredible, but once again, a horrible experience for my fat ass!

We went to dinner at 930 to get some Turkish food. My mom called me at like 945, but I had no reception so I had to call her back. She asked what I was doing and I told her I was in another city for their festival, but I don’t know if she heard me cuz the connection was bad. That night, everyone was going to stay up ALL night for the festival. The drumming started at midnight, and when we got there, pretty much everyone was super drunk! We were trying to get to the main plaza, but a grip of people headed our way and almost killed us! We get there and see all these signs in Basque. What I could get from them, they were talking about independence and not voting. They had a beach ball with ETA written all over it. Weird. I guess the festival supported the “terrorist group”. Either way, it was a lot of drinking and walking. We had our 2 liter bottle of kalimotxo and were walking around drinking it. I had a nice buzz and decided to leave it that way. We had some pintxos and continued walking. We bumped into some other program kids, then some Spaniards started talking to me and serena. The guys were drunk off their ass and super rude. One guy kept smacking unzzel in the head while one guy kept touching my face all violently! They were weird and we decided to walk away from them and head to McDonalds. There we bumped into the people from our neighborhood and kel told me there were these 2 gay guys hitting on him, and we finally found farrel.

lucy got mad at me and serena because we said Jose had “chinky eyes” and she said that was offensive. She ended up walking off with ricitos and these 7 stranger Spaniard guys to some club. We met them up, but it was 12 euros a person so me, serana, and jack headed back home. Me and serena were mad that lucy was mad at us for no reason so whatever. We bumped into the other people from Bilbao and headed back up to grace’s room at like 3am and went to bed. unzzel, grace, lucy, and ricitos got home at like 7.

We were woken up at first with ricitos yelling at hyper to leave, so they left at 9. Then at like 11 we hear noises from behind the couch. Apparently one of the girls brought a Spaniard home and they were having sex behind the couch I was sleeping on! It was sick. Me, serena, and jack left at 130 and unzzel stayed behind. I’ve been home since about 4, and now its 730. I’ve been home alone for like 2 hours so I washed some clothes and started this.

I’m just sitting here listening to Betty’s cd and typing this, remembering that my sister wanted me to update my blogger, so I should catch everyone up with a 5 page description of my 2 weeks so far. My laptop isn’t working here so I have to get on the school computers from Monday to Thursdays.

Being home alone now, I really miss my family. It’s crazy cuz I didn’t think I would. As I wrote this I cried in some parts. More on the parts where I talk about my parents. Listening to Betty doesn’t help cuz then I think of Mexico and get sad. I just hope school makes the time pass faster because right now it’s kind of sucking. I hate being alone and doing things on my own, but I guess this is all a growing experience and it’ll help me be more independent. This trip is definitely going to change the type of person I am, but I hope it’s for the better.